10 pounds down 32 pounds to go!

Tuesday, January 31, 2012

dude, fat.

so last week sucked.  january, sick dogs, crappy work stuff, hormones and it all added up to about 5 pounds.  I did a lot of things I never ever do, buying candy at the grocery store, eating almost a whole pizza myself over just two days.  I very often lose five pounds and give myself no credit because it's only five pounds but this extra five pounds makes me feel exactly like i have 5 pounds of butter strapped to myself.  I started dealing with it yesterday and i'm a pound down today.  i'm sure it was salt and or water related to shift that fast but i'm definitely glad.  only 4 or say 24 more to go.  depending on how you feel about preparing for your wedding photos in two months.  This would be a good time to start some kind of two month cleanse/or something but my emotional reserves are like shot.  things at work that have always bothered me are still happening and completely shattering me.  The dog being sick always completely shatters me, but he's getting better.  It's not a real wedding, the stressful kind that involves huge white dresses and sobbing mothers, but it's still wearing on me to have to make so many decisions about that day and the party in summer.  I had planned a massage/facial session to get my brain together but with the vet visits that's completely out of the budget.  le sigh.  but I have promised myself to do pilates every day so that's hopeful.  if i keep it up.

Wednesday, January 11, 2012

Wednesday, January 04, 2012

"we've got to get her a man before she fills this house with crucifixes and pussycats"

if i don't choose a date for my wedding reception rebecca is going to reach through the computer and kill me.  the thing is, choosing a date is hard.  really hard.  i'm not sure how much i can commit to having my whole family around for my wedding.  I had assumed that matt's family would be the problem but now it seems that my anxiety about my own family is the problem and i guess that's why we're planning an elopement in the first place.

the latest idea is to video tape the actual wedding and show it as a movie at a very cool old movie theater.  it's not expensive, it's a super fun idea (i think) it would hold all of our guests and we might be able to have alcohol for those who want it.  the problem is that securing a date and inviting people makes me feel itchy.  even if we end up just having friends up and watching a movie of our choosing with popcorn, it wouldn't be a total waste of an experience.  gosh, i might need chocolate and valium to get through this planning.