My mother in law gave me cat earrings for my birthday. again. I think this is evidence that she does in fact hate me but matt says he asked her and she said no. ha. This is why he says we should ignore as we are ignored and I do try not to care. I do. I have better days and worse days and there are some days I wish I could be vapid and focused on reproduction and big family weddings but I just can't, it's just not me. I'm trying to be a better person and let it go.
Actually I want to be such a good person that it doesn't even bother me but I'm not sure I can afford the therapy to be that good. I'll settle for not seething because someone gave me a present. That'll all change when we get married and she's not there, I'm sure I won't see anything as friendly as cat earrings again. I might have to start a completely new blog for that, something with barbed wire.
As this is supposed to be a weightloss blog, I will share that I am losing very slowly by eating more calories. It's very difficult psychologically to eat more calories to lose weight but i'm tracking and really trying to eat well to fuel our daily exercise. I need to get back in to my pilates every day thing. I've been stretching every day to keep my shoulder loose but I would definitely benefit from the core exercise. I have a dress that fits at my current size but I wouldn't mind terribly if I was so thin I had to buy a new one. I'd get over it.