A few weeks ago I set myself a very small goal of doing some pilates every single day. Initially the goal was to do some pilates every day until my wedding, and then until my reception. Really I need to do some pilates every day forever but that seems more possible when I break it down. I don't always have time to do the whole regimen and I haven't expanded my pilates repertoire the way I once did, learning new challenging routines. My real goal isn't to lose a hundred pounds, it's to keep my rotator cuff strong and stretched and to never have it seize up in pain again. The shoulder thing has happened at least three times this year which is a truly unacceptable number, it takes weeks and weeks of pain and zero accomplishments to get over it and I'm committing myself to preventing that for a whole year because there is just too much to do.
I'm actually pretty happy with my weight and such right now. my real priority is to stay loose and strong. garden work has been kicking my ass this year along with the other ways I've been neglecting myself lately. I found that I fit into a jean skirt I didn't think I could wear and a size medium t-shirt I had thought should go to goodwill so I'm pleased with the overall direction. I've known a few brides who did nutri system or south beach for months before their weddings but we're not planning the kind of wedding that involves hundreds of people staring at you so the pressure is a bit different. I'd love to be trim in all my photos but hell, if I ever get genuinely thin we'll just take more pictures and have a parade or something...can't live your life waiting to be thinner.