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10 pounds down 32 pounds to go!

Sunday, October 19, 2008

"I took a small step and there conclusions were"

It is 26 degrees out. Holy shit winter came fast. I spent all day yesterday telling my boys that it's not cold and jesus, 26 degrees in October. I'm a liar, officially. The guys are going to think I'm a made of steel tundra woman who clubs seals for a living and doesn't feel cold. Not that there's anything wrong with that.

I had a very nice day yesterday with my new friend and my old friends. We're cutting back crews and some folks are going home, so I forced them all into hugging me after grocery shopping. I felt like the fat auntie with the red lipstick none of the nephews want to get caught by, but they were good sports about my girl need to hug them. I'll have to look up how you say "crazy american, run" in spanish for future reference. It's interesting having a good english speaker in the group, I'm learning more about the guys every day. For instance, they all think I dye my hair because no one as white as me can have hair that dark. Ha! Not so my friends, not so. My hair gets darker and darker and when I dye it I go lighter, touche! An interesting thing to think though, I guess I'm supposed to be blond.

So, I went to the grocery store today and I feel amazingly guilty about every cent I spent and I haven't even been laid off yet. It's fairly inevitable, given the last few days at work, but I'm seriously not ready. As much as I joke to myself about staying home and spending 8 hours a day doing pilates and making cookies I really, really don't want to be broke. I liked being able to buy stuff, I am shallow and I like it that way. I did broke for so long...it sucks. Unemployment schmunemployment. I'm not sure what's worse, this job or no job at all...man that's sad.

6 comments:

Floating Princess said...

We've been waiting for the axe to fall at work too and it's so hard! Right now we're living in denial. They keep telling us we're fine, but since they closed one of our other offices no one believes them anymore. I know I should be saving every cent so I get stressed out whenever I spend money, and then hubs gets cranky about money because I'm cranky about money. It's a giant ball of stress! I'm sorry you're going through it too. :(

Amy said...

nice new picture! It is a ball of stress, a cycle of stressitude. I hope we come out ok.

MayQueen said...

Just hope that your boss doesn't can you three days before Christmas after telling you for a month that you won't be laid off for the winter. I have no idea why I went back to that job the next February. They didn't deserve me.

Amy said...

they totally didn't. and you never called me about that pumpkin smoohie, my feelers are totally hurt.

Rebecca said...

is it really a possibility?

ugh...feeling for you.

Amy said...

it's more possible every minute I'm here...