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10 pounds down 32 pounds to go!

Sunday, April 06, 2008

hope burns eternal

I'm finding it very difficult to gather myself for the, err, coming struggles. One minute I feel super confident and the next I just wish I could go back in time. I'm really trying to believe that everything happens for a reason and something positive will come of this but mostly I think I'm being punished for making a mistake. Which is very dramatic I know. I think the root of the problem is that I'm punishing myself. I stopped exercising, I stopped being a scrupulous saver and I started believing that maybe I could stand being belittled as long as it pays well. That's not taking charge of your life, in the traditional sense.

I have removed the rest of this, better to not be in the public view after all. Patience is a virtue.

4 comments:

pinky pinkerson said...

oh good gravy - the audacity of some bosses!

do you have to do visa paperwork? I had to do it for my last job, and it was like writing stereo instructions in latin while blindfolded. BLEAH.

athena said...

I didn't have to do it this year, next year if I'm still there I will. I think they pay someone to do it though, like a firm.

belly said...

good god! i hope you're not there in a year... wait. i hope your boss isn't there in a year and that you are thriving and successful after getting the short end of the boss stick. that guy sounds like a total louse.

hang in there!

athena said...

It is very trying. Thanks for the support, I definitely need it.